Utterly bewildered….

Last night was…..really good and bad for many reasons

Last night I got home to see my room mates drunk with a friend of ours and her brother playing Circle of Death. After several beers, I myself became inxoticated as well, knowing full well the consequences. but I did not realize what I would do. I did things last night that I am not proud of, my room mates similarly. It leads me to the either freedom or utter selfishness of being drunk. I both love and hate it, knowing that I will do and say things I dont normally do.  Anyways, i can explain more later. I am just really confused as to what i did means and if it means anything.